In the beginning of our pregnancy with Trinity, Washington and I decided not to test for Down syndrome, just as we had not with Tristan. We discussed it at length and told each other that we would handle and love what ever God chose to give us. What you may not know though is that during the pregnancy I worried so much about Down syndrome in particular. I don't know if it was Gods way of getting me to think about it or not? I thought about it constantly and even would pray sometimes at night for God not to do that to us.
When Trinity was born and we found out she had Down syndrome so many thoughts went through both of our minds and thankfully out of our mouths. (Communication is KEY in this situation!) During the first few months I even began to wonder, with my thoughts being so strong about her having DS while I was pregnant, if we should not have just tested? Then my mind started to wonder....would I have been like the other 90% of parents that test and aborted this baby? Maybe. I can't say for 100% certain that I would not have done it. I would like to believe I would not, but I can not say it.
Over a year later and I now thank GOD that I never put myself in that situation to have to choose. What would I have missed out on...so much! My life is amazingly better for having her in my life. Yes, I still get tears from time to time, but believe me these tears are not of regret. I walked the Typical path prior to Trinity, so I now know what I would have missed. We have some much going on with her in our lives, but nothing we can't handle or would trade. People walking the Typical path will never understand truly, but when they meet Trinity they get a small glimpse of the Angel God has trusted us with.
Today had been a THANKFUL day...
The Mommy
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